Mercury Retrograde

One year after...
There should be celebration
Because of survival
The lessons learnt
And doing well

Instead
There's only frustration
Of non-acceptance
Fear; nothing earned
And resistance of every cell

Crisps of anger
Instead of the creamy white
Want the love so tender
But it's only me that bites

Please,
Why is is this so painful
Why this wave in life
Again the denial
Is it mercury retrograde
Loneliness
A neverending file
Or my Ego, willing to be in this state?

Will I fade?