Different

Was last weekend a total disaster for me, this week was different.
Decided to (temporary) let go of a person I was too attached to, of some of my habits-overeating- and although it was terribly busy at work, I let other people in, I discovered things, got and found myself in a very strange state of mind.... Hyper but also eager to go, filled with inspiration, more in contact with my guides and inner self and with more trust in myself. It sounds like I was totally imbalanced and maybe you're right, but there's something going on!

Am reading about Avalon and spiritual places in nature, alignment, the leylines- lines that were powerful energy places throughout history, and later in Christian times points to build churches and monasteries (as nothing is being founded somewhere without a reason!) I recognise myself in the literature, I think it will it deepen my contact with nature, because I want to understand! Lately I have found out that having contact with trees works so good for me. I visit some weekly and just sit against them for a while or just greet or touch them during my walk. They give me comfort, safety, strenght or just some light. Before I started doing that, I always felt deep emotions or peace whenever I was in the forest or surrounded by 'green'... The colour, the leaves.. And now, I can sometimes see the magic: the endless rows of trees, connected by branches or just standing there in an open field, lonely but proud. Just being there and giving.

This week I felt somehow I was on some kind of a right track... When/ how the puzzle will fall together, I am not sure, but there must be some kind of link to my roots or something that is inside me. I enlisted to a walk with a guide in june who knows much about the earth's energy and leylines and I'm really looking forward to join in, to learn and experience...

Unfortunately this weekend was exhausting because of helping my friend who was moving with her family from one part of the country to the other. Still, I feel different. In general, sometimes feeling tired, miserable and swollen yes, but also with more dignity and peace...only a tiny bit, but still..

Thank you, the ones who always see the bright side in me and unconsiously giving me a hand...
X
P.S. Did I mention that I'll probably have a new job soon? :-)